DISCLAIMER...

So I was thinking about my last post & thought of certain people that may read it. So if you are related or know the people in the story you may think I have shared too much. No one has said anything, but I am getting a prompting to post a disclaimer of why I shared too much. Reading in the scriptures not everything is perfect. It talks of war, greed, lusting, loss, faith, strength in prayer, weak things becoming strong things, etc. This blog is my journal, like the scriptures were to the people of old. Not saying I am a prophet writing scriptures, but I look at the scriptures like journals of people...who experienced things like we do. So in my story I have shared my thoughts and and how I felt at that time. I want to say that when I die people will know I wasn't perfect or a complete sinner. They will know I experienced repentance & they will know that I am just like them. I guess that is why I share it. I share it so that if someone else has struggled with what I have they will know they are not alone. I always think of the hymn, "Lord I Will Follow Thee" 2nd verse: Who am I to judge another when I walk imperfectly? In the quiet heart is hidden sorrow that the eye can't see. Who am I to judge another? Lord, I would follow thee. Also I have talked to Scott on Facebook. He added me last week & I asked him why he broke up with me. I always wondered. He disappeared on me like Edward left Bella in the 2nd Twilight book-New Moon. He tried to warn me that he didn't want to get married yet, but I didn't listen. I was so desparate to get married that I just didn't want to hear that it was over. After we talked about it all I realized that I was adding onto his pain. He said it was the hardest thing breaking up with me, and he said that he did it mainly because he saw his life spiraling down & didn't want to take me with him. I respect him for that & appreciate him being honest with me. I appreciate him putting up with me asking him why & what happened to him. He dropped off the face of the earth. I actually thanked him for breaking up with me! It brought me closer to God & I made my life better & I knew when I met Chris that if I had chosen Scott it wouldn't have been the right choice. Chris is completely my eternal companion & I am so thankful for him! My patriarchal blessing told me to be prayerful in my choice of a companion and at the time that I dated Scott I never prayed about it. With Chris I prayed for God to send him to me & He did. Anyway I just wanted to share this & let people know that that was my past & my history. I am not afraid of what people think of me, but I want them to understand so that they know not to judge. And also if they haven't read the story yet, you may not want to. haha ;o) Now I bet they really want to read it LOL ;o). Anyway thanks for reading my blog & also added it to let people know the difference in Scott & Chris. Chris had respect for me in more ways than one. Anyway I am going to leave this disclaimer at that ;o).