Ben Hates Caldwell

Ben is always telling me that he misses our small house (the apartment by the park). He told me tonight that he hates Caldwell! He started the conversation because I changed the words to a little primary song "I lived in Heaven a long time ago it is true..." I sang, "I lived in Boise a long time ago it is true..." And he said, "NO!" I asked him why he doesn't like it here and his 1st words were, "The kids at my school say I am little! BUT I AM NOT LITTLE I AM 6!" I let Benjamin know that mommy & daddy are considered little to other people too. I let him know that even though people say that he is little doesn't mean that they don't think he can do it. I told him it's just because he is shorter not that he can't do something. I told him he is very smart and that he is a fast runner and that he draws really good! Then he told me that Adam (his friend he plays with after school everyday) he will see him on the playground and that Adam will run away and go hide or play somewhere else...I asked Ben if he has any other friends and he said Austynne (a little girl in his class that when Chris asked the teacher about her the teacher said that Austynne is everyone's friend.). Ben really likes this Austynne girl, but we have yet to meet her :o). Then lastly he said that at recess he gets cold and will stand next to the wall to stay warm. He said, "My hands get SO COLD!" Oh man I get the bad mom award for that! :o( I felt so bad! I let him know that I didn't even think about getting him mittens or gloves. "All the kids have gloves but me!" :*o(. I let him know that I will make sure he has gloves. He has really liked Spiderman lately, and asked for Spiderman ones, but I let him know we have Batman ones we had bought.

I feel like my problem has been that I have been in such auto pilot I don't realize the things that I should be focusing on. I am so glad that I was able to talk with Benjamin tonight to find out what has been really bugging him. He's been mean at daycare all week and I wasn't sure why, but maybe he is frustrated that he is feeling insecure at school a bit and that he has issues with people he trusts at school to be his friends. I am trying to teach the kids that we don't hit to make friends we hug. I also let them know some people don't like hugs so we need to respect them if they don't want a hug. I have been really tired lately and I haven't been on Facebook AS much and I have really neglected the blog. My kids are WONDERFUL and Emmaline is on all fours now and all she needs to do now is get her motion of crawling down...I really think she will be crawling for sure by the end of next week! Need to get everything off the floor!! She is such a GREAT little baby! She really has a sweet spirit about her! My niece Amber came to visit us and she mentioned that she could tell Emmaline had a lot of love in her. All my kids are amazing to me and I am a really lucky momma! I almost feel like I have grown up so much more after having Emmaline! I have to say I don't think I have played "The Sims" for almost a year! I LOVED and was SO OBSESSED with the sims before and now I could take it or leave it! It's so weird to me how certain things that I loved before don't really matter much. Since I have gotten the piano this week especially I started where we will come home, have dinner, and I will play the piano for a few songs and then I will get the kids upstairs to get ready for bed. We have such a crazy schedule and I hope it won't last forever! It's WEARING ME OUT! Chris works TOO much, but I know it's necessary :*o(. I am a bit overwhelmed with everything that at times I break down. I don't know if I can handle this forever. Well I think I am going to go take a bath now and RELAX! YAY for Fridays!