PANIC ATTACKS ARE SCARY!!

8-09-10

Was driving home from work and started feeling VERY dizzy, lightheaded, and weak! Got to St Luke's Hospital (the next exit) and checked myself in to the ER. They did tests on me and said I looked fine, (my heart was fine, my kidneys were fine, and they even tested me for blood clots...none.) but they knew something was wrong...the ER doctor told me to talk to my doc today and test me for lupus and rheumatoid arthritis...cause my heart and kidneys are ok. He said part of it was dehydration...I was very shaky at the hospital and it almost felt like a drug overdose. I had taken my ibuprofen (been taking it for a few weeks now 3 times a day...) at 4 at work and my legs started feeling numb and I thought it was the socks...and then when I got in the car my eye blurred a bit and I felt coolness around my heart. When they hooked the iv to me at the hospital I felt a lot better...they let me go home and told me to take the day off...WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???

8-10-11

I tried to go without my ibuprofen today and I couldn't so I took it at 5:45AM and I am feeling weird again. Dr's office called and said to stop taking it. Going in today at 1:45...someone is driving me.

I said a long prayer at the doctor's office (you know cause they make you wait... ;o)). And I asked Heavenly Father to let me know it will be ok and that I won't die this year...and I felt comfort and had the thought in my head that it will be fine. The doctor said that my heart, kidneys, lungs everything is fine. He said he is checking with a rhumetory specialist to ask about putting my on prednizone (sp) just for a couple of weeks to get my feet back to good. And he took me off the motrin and the lasix and said to take Tylenol. He reassured me that I will be ok and he said I am not going to have any chronic illnesses, but that this thing I am going through is because of the strep and my body is fighting it off. He says I won't die well that eventually people die, but that I will be fine. I am feeling a bit better (motrin is wearing off...) and I am going to attempt eating again (had a total loss of appetite food tasted yucky to me...). I am just a bit freaked out about driving. The doctor said that he thinks what I had was a panic attack yesterday...he talked to me about carbon dioxide and how it is regulated in our bodies and he said if I feel like that again to take a paper bag and breath into it. He thinks the Motrin may have caused it.

8-11-10

Had anxiety driving to work that I would have another panic attack...asked my boss, Seth, to give me a blessing & he and the other 2 bosses, Quinn and Zach, were present and they listened to my issues and after the blessing I felt better and Quinn gave me a shoulder hug. I love where I work & appreciate my bosses! In the blessing Seth mentioned that I go through things so that I can understand others needs. That's so true! I felt so much comfort after having them bless me and I felt such a spirit having all 3 of them in the room with me! I did great today and am feeling better! Legs still hurt, but I am not worried about dying anymore..:o) I work at a local phone book company and the owner is a member and his sons & son-in-law are the bosses (VP's...). I was a little worried about asking, but thought...I don't want to worry about my drive home like I did the drive to work...and it turned out well!

8-12-10

Driving has been great and work went well today...I even ate really well. My feet hurt (cause I do too much...), but I don't have that anxiety! There has been a young woman coming to my home to help me out every night after work so that I can rest. She has been a blessing and I appreciate her. Her name is Mackenzie Herrera. She is going to come again tomorrow and we are going to have a girls night because Chris is taking Benjamin to the ward Father/Sons camp out. Ben is SOOOOOOO excited! Amelia was jealous and wanted to have a "girl's camp". So I figured I would set up a blankie tent and we would paint nails and watch princess movies. It will be Emmaline's 1st time getting her nails painted ;o). Mackenzie said she would bring her cool nail polishes. YAY ;o)